Please don’t ever think that this was an easy decision for me, or the easy way out. We may only be ‘a day away’ as everyone keeps telling me (including myself) but leaving everything you know, and most importantly everyone you know – is the hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life.
It’s not the uncertainty of the life we will have, it’s the knowing that life continues here without you, and that your missing out on the littlest things that never looked like the big stuff…like watching tv with your parents, nipping round to your mates or Nan’s for a cuppa, the comfort of home and a big hug from your mum and dad when you need it.
I know life will be lovely, but my home will always be here….I’m just off on an adventure!
Tonight both my mum and dad were in tears. There are so many words I want to say to them and I just can’t get it out. They know how much I love them, I know how much they love me and I know this is going to be hard for us all – but I know that deep down they know this is right for me and they are happy, they’re just going to miss me as much as I’ll miss them and it breaks my heart.
So, I want to say a huge goodbye to all who care, I really do hope you keep in touch and come visit. I’m sorry for all of the weddings, get togethers, birthdays and Christmases I’m not going to be there for. I’m sorry I won’t meet your baby until they are 1-2 and I hate that they won’t know me. I will be there when I can and when you really need me, and I’m always free to Skype!
I’ll certainly miss this place, but I’ll miss the people much more xx